Today 26th July 2024. Manifesting. Speaking out.

What came to me today, interestingly, on the subject of manifesting was when I was having my morning coffee in the garden,"Isn't everyone doing their homework on manifesting?". Well yesterday I had listened to some youtube interviews with Matias, (links Below) and felt armed with inspiration but still no footing as such. This is because since April 2023 I had been forcibly removed from the world to work on what I thought was prioritising my physical health. I had been working in Marlybon London and had to leave the job due to severe pains in my back and abdominals. It was the beginning of a healing process and purging to remove the gunk 'build up' from ancestral and familial carried patterns, which had somehow decided it was time to be lifted into the icloud. Anyway, during that time was a series of defeats and despairs as the clearing healing rendered me helpless and imobilised. A Long story which I only figured out in the last three months...... So back to manifesting. Obviously I had found out, the HARD WAY, that manifesting is easy, but when it is subconscious, it is driven by those lost subconscious parts of you that are crying out to be heard, seen, felt and released or integrated.... so that THEY are the foundation from which your manifestations come to life, alas....more of the same. The healing process for me came to the beginnings of some kind of resolution this week. Long Story. But during that time, (and much Longer really) all the delicious dreams and aching inspirations had remained as dusty books that lay on my own personal internal library....... So this morning, I was in the garden drinking my coffee, looking at the pergola. I enjoy the way the sun comes through the leaves and dapples shadows on what is below. Then It came to me. The pergola was the one thing I had "spoken out about" during that long and dusty aching period since the previous April. DURING That whole period, there was long extensively SSSSLLLOOWW 'work' done, parallel with with my resolve to reincarnate the garden somehow, I was also deep in the challenge of recreating (reincarnating) myself. But the clearing comes first, it was a parallel process to my healing. the outward discourse For me was "If I am going to be here, this garden is needs to be cleared and loved back to life, (ah yes, 'Me too', I needed to be cleared first and loved back to life). The neighbours ugly breeze block wall had crumpled and fallen down in heavy April winds, coinciding with me leaving the job, and revealing the 'boundary less' neighbours working garden, of a builders yard mess, machinary and debris. Then on the other side, between that neighbours garden and my garden were two Asbestos garages, her's and mine, both ugly and health threatening. The Asbestos garages were a relic from early 60's or 70's convenience, but were both a cringing sad eyesore and for me a heart aching reminder of all that had gone before: The garden was a mess, overgrown and dumped in. And it broke my heart. I was now forced to look at it and deal with it. I had declared to myself That I wanted a HEALING garden..... It is a Long story, and I will spare you the details, but if I was NOT able to move from the area, I was at least going to improve where I sat out to have my coffee. I had very reluctantly moved back here during covid and figured out a year later, it was the universe conspiring with my souls plan for some deep reworking of old familial and ancestral wounds.....I couldnt talk about this, or the unacknowledged healing that I was treading water in deep emotional seas that felt like were drowning me.... BUT I had loved the idea of a Pergola and I COULD speak about that. So I spoke it out often......It was really only back in September 2023, when the Frightening asbestos garages were finally taken down and removed along with thejunk build up from several decades that there a space. The fencing on both sides had gracefully arisen on both sides, like transformational erections that appeared from the mirages in my mind. The pergola had been bought and lay in log piles for months. Finally in June, it was erected.....And the little pergola space, bit by bit became loved again. The healing garden I had DECIDED I wanted, had appeared finally. Then This morning, I realised that it was the healing of the Garden space.... that was running parallel to my own healing, and that was the obvious physical manifestion of the healing. During that time of "enforced rest", I was healing the garden, while the garden was healing me. While I was In an enforced space to heal myself i couldnt verbalise it, But the words I could not convey to others, were hidden behind the 'speaking out' of the desire to clear space for a pergola. Then the pergola, rose like a pheonix and now adds dappled light to the space using the suns soft light. Moral of the story is to "speak it out"....Have a focus point to spear head your dreams. AND SPEAK THAT OUT. In my case, and unbeknownst to how, the healing was absolutely paramount, and it was only when I was fully up to neck in it, that actually knew it was a healing of major undertaking, and that nothing or noone was allowed to reroute me from. During that time I had to obscure the pain of the details of the healing, by creating a parallel focus point, a crowning point, somewhere to arrive at, that would indicate all converge and arrive at a manifested point, someday in the clearing of time. ...... For this blog, I give you the reader, a friend, space to SPEAK out your desires for manifestation. OFTEN we do not have the luxury of wellwishers that want to hear our designs or ideas, our wishes and desires, please feel free to use the comment space to manifesto your dream into being in the clearing of time. Michaela.