Pergola, New Horizons

Firstly, knowing that the energy vibrations we carry will 'spike' anything we manifest. So unhealed wounds and hidden traumas will colour the outcome. So if you feel like manifesting 'baby blues', or 'cockatiel greens', if we carry unknown mud floods in our subconscious history, we will skew the outcome colour to 'wet pigeon greys' or 'vomit soup'. Secondly manifesting our dreams from the preprogrammed regime of the societal collective consciousness, means recreating the same old same old. That is picking a dream from ' the history of times,' and pulling out an age old instruction set 'prefab' dream, much like shopping in an ancient department store, and getting the same old cardboard game board with a seventies picture on the Box. 8888 These times now are not about Choosing from what was dictated as available from before, but letting the inner spark play with all the colours that enthuse, vibrate, inspire and call out to be exp...

This has been an incredibly mischievous year for me, energies having caused or intended to cause harm or trouble. Big internal earthqukes bringing my internal landscape to rubble while trying to unveil and show me where was hidden, the wounds that I ignored. Hidden because I was too entangled with masking them as to make them invisible to my present and to be able to continue to be a normal functioning adult, in a disfunctional functioning way, making myself look, feel and seem to be 'alright' to others. Whilst the 'The Sun' Card, burned through the summer illuminating it all for me in painful pixel pieces, I engaged in the plan of getting the pergola. This didn't really happen till July. But then It was there. Good, and strong and up. Now In October I figure this summer the erection of the pergola was largely bringing about the 'keeping afloat survival' Plan: to bring a small win during an otherwise difficult time...made difficult by my wound being seared...